Long time no see or read...:)

Well it has been almost a year since I have posted. I don't know why I haven't, I guess I just didn't feel the need.

Not much has changed in our life since then. Blake is now 3. This is an awesome age. We have gotten through a lot with him and we were successfully potty trained before his 3rd birthday. He is such a joy in our lives. I never knew what it felt like to have a part of myself away from me all the time. I miss him alot when I am at work. I wish I could stay home with him but I know that our family needs us to work and I know that he doesn't love me any less.

My husband decided to be a poultry farmer...... yeah. We are raising chickens, quail and pigeons. We are selling chicken eggs. It is fun for Blake to learn about it and I have grown to like it too. Mike didn't quit his day job...lol, he just added to the fun! :)

We are waiting on God to maybe let us have another baby. If its not in His will then thats ok, but I would really love to have another baby.

I am going to try to update more often! I will at least once a week!

Talk to you soon blog world!

My sweet babies.

My sweet baby Taylor made his/her homegoing today. It was awful, but it always is. I tried to keep myself busy today to keep my mind off of the sadness and pain. It really didn't work too much. With ever step, deep breath, sneeze, cough, and laugh(those were few) I could feel the pain and it would remind me of just what was happening. I tried not to lose it but I did several times.

When we had our first miscarriage someone suggested that we give our sweet baby a name. It didn't make things better by any stretch of the imagination, but it did help with the grieving process. We gave them unisex names since we weren't far enough along to know the sex. So we now have three sweet babies that one day I will get to see in Heaven.

Dakota Ray whose birthday/homegoing was March 03, 2005. This was our first miscarriage and our first pregnancy.

Peyton Kelly whose birthday/homegoing was August 19, 2005. This was our second miscarriage and our second pregnancy.

and finally

Taylor Lynn whose birthday/homecoming was today October 3, 2009. This was my third miscarriage and our fourth pregnancy.

I know that this is a hard process since I have been through this several times. I am trying to keep my eyes on God because I know that He is with me and all things are done for His purpose. I am having a super hard time keeping it together right now and no one will ever know my inner struggles (expect God). I just hope that soon I can start to feel whole again, or at least be able to think clearly.

Angel babies...... :(

Most everyone, including most of our family didn't even know I was pregnant. It was a joy that Mike and I had for the most part kept to ourselves. We had miscarried twice before and were a little gun shy. We found out we were pregnant last Friday which was Sept 25. We lept for joy! We were so excited. The doctor did blood work to look at my HCG level. It was low but they asked me to come in on monday. I went on Monday and the level rose but did not double as it was supposed to. They asked me to come in today for another check and the level dropped to 6 which is 1 number away from the non pregnant level. I am devastated. This makes three miscarriages. The nurse told me that because I was so early (about 5 1/2 weeks) that my body should naturally expel the baby and that I would not need a DNC.
I am having a really hard time holding it together this time. Please pray for our family that we will keep our focus on God and be able to heal.

Oh the joys of the internet!

Well I can honestly say that I am not as mad at Suddenlink as I once was. Let me start from the beginning....

When we got our cable internet services back in December we had nothing but problems with connection. I called and called and they came out in replaced my service line. Time went on and after our eventful summer settled down I called back. They told me my coverage was spotty at best and I needed another wall line. So I told them to schedule it...and they said that the soonest that the could come out was Sept 14. (this conversation was on August 30) Needless to say NO one showed up that day or the next wednesday or the next friday. So we were LIVID! We called them back and they scheduled for tonight the 23rd.

We had a wonderful tech named John come out. As soon he got here Mike recognized him. They went to school together. He helped us tremendously and come to find out we just needed a repair and not another line. Yay!! Thank you John for all of your help!

So while I am still mad at Suddenlink because some of their staff needs assistance, we finally got some good help. The internet is doing well so far. I guess maybe time will tell.....

Welcome to the Blog world!

Ok....so I have been following (or as Keith and I call it stalking) friends blogs for years and now have decided to make our own.

Where to begin? Well I am sure most of the ones who will read this probably already know us but here are some details. Mike and I have been married for almost 8 years. We have one son Blake who is two. Mike works in the medical field and I work in insurance. Mike recently had open heart double bypass surgery but is doing well. We have recently started helping with Philly 101 which is the college ministry at our church Philadelphia Baptist Church. We are having a blast. We have some really great friends in our life and are so thankful for them.

We are Christians. We LOVE God! He is amazing and has done AMAZING things in our lives. We would be nowhere without Him. He will not bring you to something that He won't bring you through and we are true testiments to that statment.

We have wonderful family that is always around love and cherish. Mikes family lives close and my family is pretty close too.

I am excited about starting a blog! This is a wonderful way to keep up with other friends and family members.

Love, Brandy