My sweet babies.

My sweet baby Taylor made his/her homegoing today. It was awful, but it always is. I tried to keep myself busy today to keep my mind off of the sadness and pain. It really didn't work too much. With ever step, deep breath, sneeze, cough, and laugh(those were few) I could feel the pain and it would remind me of just what was happening. I tried not to lose it but I did several times.

When we had our first miscarriage someone suggested that we give our sweet baby a name. It didn't make things better by any stretch of the imagination, but it did help with the grieving process. We gave them unisex names since we weren't far enough along to know the sex. So we now have three sweet babies that one day I will get to see in Heaven.

Dakota Ray whose birthday/homegoing was March 03, 2005. This was our first miscarriage and our first pregnancy.

Peyton Kelly whose birthday/homegoing was August 19, 2005. This was our second miscarriage and our second pregnancy.

and finally

Taylor Lynn whose birthday/homecoming was today October 3, 2009. This was my third miscarriage and our fourth pregnancy.

I know that this is a hard process since I have been through this several times. I am trying to keep my eyes on God because I know that He is with me and all things are done for His purpose. I am having a super hard time keeping it together right now and no one will ever know my inner struggles (expect God). I just hope that soon I can start to feel whole again, or at least be able to think clearly.